Wednesday, May 10, 2006

missing my dad

Janae and Grandma
Grandpa,Janae and Jordan

me and my dad
arrived in Utah at 3:oo on Thursday.The ride was pretty fast and very comfortable.Kelly drove the whole time and her van is so comfey.No words could have ever prepared me for what I saw there sat my dad in his chair he had no hair and his skin was so yellow and he had no voice it was the saddest thing I have ever saw.My dad who can not sit still for more than 5 minutes was so liveless and all he did was sit in his chair except to eat and sometimes sit outside
with us.
My dad looked so different to me that it actually took my breath away the first time I saw him. While I was there I learned thaat he is actually having the most advance chemo that they have.I also learned that he will prolaby have radiation but that it won't help him his cancer has spread to his lungs and the tumor in his stomach has not shrunk.
My dad and I had a really good talk he told me that he beleived that Jesus is his Lord and Savior and he died for his sins. H e told me that I will see him again in heaven that he loved me and for me to please keep in touch with his wife. And to continue to grow my children the way that I am. My step mom could use prayers to as hard is this is for me it has to harder for her they have been married 21 years and she is not to healthly herself she takes care of him day and night. She has a sweet personality and heart.
I feel like my life is on hold right now and I can't make long term plans I need to be able to get to my dads when hospice comes. Please continue to pray for me and my family.Also please pray for my father in law who lives with us they found a mass in his stomach and he is having a catscan done on Thursday. God bless all of you.


Tanya Nichols said...

I will pray for your father as well as you, to strengthen you. Much Love and again you'll be prayed for...

terrible speller said...

praying for you and your family

Laney said...

I'm so sorry, this must be so difficult for you. You will be in my prayers, too.


Kate said...

I am so glad to hear that your Dad is saved. That is so comforting even among this painful time. I will be praying for you Char and for your father in law too. I am so happy that you were able to see him now. Thinking of you... :) HUGS!

Polka Dotted Pickles said...

I will pray for you and your family. That is great what he said about God!

Jfur said...

Wow, you have really been going through a lot lately. I am so sorry that your father is so ill, I will pray that God will stay close to you during this time. I am glad that your personal surgery went well and I pray for your continued recovery. I'm sure it is also ongoing. Draw near to your Father in heaven right now, it is all to easy to fall away during times of crisis. I don't know why we all have these times where we have such trials that seem to try every nerve within us, but I know God carries us through them. Blessings to you.

Mrs. House Mouse said...

~Praying for you and your family~

T.E.E.Q. said...

I have said a prayer for your father. I pray all is well.

Remember that God is in control. My mom was told several times she would die, but she lived 12 years after that. She was not in any pain either, which mean she did not suffer.

I know this must be difficult to take in, but know that nothing will happen until God says so.

Take Care

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