Well it has been forever since I have wrote on blog. Have to say that I have became a huge fan of face book but I think I am going to blog for while as well. as much has happened to me in this last year. Jace just turned one in December he is a huge blessing he is saying mama a ton and he attached to me like glue. That 's OK with me. Beyond all of that we are now living in a different state so much has changed.

Maybe if I write it down it will be easier to deal with, first we put out house up for sale in hopes of selling it and getting out of debt. You see God was so faithful to pay our bills when Steve had his knee replaced but however HE DID not pay our credit cards we got further and further in debt. We thought if we sold the house all our problems would be solved. WE got a full asking price on our home in less than a week our Realtor was for sure this was a for sure deal. Then Steve has an offer for someone to buy his business. This is all going so fast God what do we do now. we started to pray about moving last year but because of peoples response to us was so negative we gave up and did not listen to God. Ouch that last sentence really hurts my heart. So now was the time we decided to move to Washington, let me just say that you defitley know who your true friends are when you announce you are moving.

To speed things up we moved our house fell out of the contract three days before closing and we lived in a different state. We almost lost the house but some nice Christian couple are renting it for now. Than my husbands business went under fast and hard. We are living in a very small four bed room apartment with his elderly father we had our car reposed and we are in the process of claiming bankruptcy. God has stripped us from everything we have nothing left ourapartment is so bare we have gone from a five bedroom home to this what the heck is going on where did we go wrong. My marriage has been tested over and over again and I am ashamed to say but I haven't always passed. I have gotten to the point sometimes where I am like this is not worth it I am done.

Writing this all down as been very hard for this is such a personal trial in my life. I am not good at sharing my heart with other's. I am having a hard time with trusting in general due to some situations that I can not share. Hope you have a Blessed day thanks for reading this please keep us in Ur prayer's..

If I said that I am great and this is such a Godly experience I WOULD BE LYING to myself and to my Lord.. However I can say that I am asking for Him to guide us and show us what he is doing and what is it that he wants us to do. I can also say that I trust Him with all of this and my life. Through this He has showed me that HE is so very faithful and He will meet me right where I am at.

I have tried to look at all of my blessings through all of this

1. my kids are healthily and they Love the Lord

2. Having great friends here

3. He did allow us to get our car back

4. the ocean is beautiful

5. He Loves me...