Thursday, March 01, 2007

Trials are hard.. But Thank you for them.

I can not believe that I am 5 months praise God. I have to say this has been a very hard time in my life trusting him completely. I have been attending a women's bible study by Beth Moore. The study is so great if you ever have a chance to take it you should. She has us do this 5 point pledge is Say's this. 1. God can do what he says He can do. 2. God is who says He is. 3. I am who God Say's I am. 4. I can do all things through Christ. 5. Gods word is alive and active in me. That is a constant reminder that He can do what He says he can do.
This has been so hard for me because I had to have a d/c last October and I did not want to go through that again that is my second one I have had enough. For me it was like I stood in line for a baby and I came home with nothing a emptiness inside me that hurt so bad that I hated every one around me especially the teen girls who did not want a baby. And all of the women at the mall who were pregnant. I wasn't mad at God but I was hurt and confused. I went through the why Me's a lot. I had horrible fights with my husband I told my pastor to get out of my house that I had nothing to say to him. Thank God for a loving and merciful Savior He brought me to a place where I had to trust Him. Nothing else satisfied the emptiness except Him. I look back on that time in my life where all I did was cry and was so horribly saddened I am so thankful that I had that trail it gave me a more intimate relation ship with my Jesus. My Jesus the one who suffered for me He took the pain for me He loves me so much that he gave His life for me.
Trials are hard I will even go as far as saying that sometimes they just plain suck. They are such a growing experience for us they bring us closer to our loving Savior. He has the perfect plan for us. He can see what our future has for us even though we sometimes think we know what is best for us. He Loves you so much and He wants the best that we can't even imagine what that is. Thank you Jesus for all you have done and will do.


truth said...

Well said, and congratulations for getting to 5 months. That must feel monumental.

Mama Lily said...

It's through the fire that we become gold. It's hard to realize it at the time, but it's so true. Sorry about your losses. I truly understand. We have four angels in heaven waiting for us as well. Thanks for commenting on my blog and letting me know you're there!!

Mommy Dearest said...

I'm sorry you've had to go through this. It sounds like things are much better this time. I had a miscarriage in 1992, and I went through anger, too. It is a very emotional experience.

When you switched to beta, blogger did to you what it did to me when I switched: it shows your age as 250! You're the only other person besides me where I've seen this.

Polka Dotted Pickles said...

Yay! Hey, I called your place the other day to see if I could crash for a bit, but you weren't home. :) I'll try again. See you at church.

Polka Dotted Pickles said...

Yeah, this weekend was...bad. But God is there through it all. I'll tell you about it later.

I'd love to come over for dinner! Sweet! Um, I have a big chem test on Wednesday, so tommorrow night and Tuesday may be out. Wednesdays or Thursdays work.

Polka Dotted Pickles said...
would be my e-mail. Gracias!

Tammy said...

Thank you for stopping by today...

I can relate a bit. I went through a D&C in-between my two girls. It was such a hard time for me...but God is good, and my second daughter was born almost exactly one year later.

I love the Pledge that Beth Moore uses...I'm going to look into her books. (I went to the live telecast but had never been to a study before.)

Congratulations on your little one!

Dyllis said...

Good words.

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