ALMOST FRIDAY

I can't wait for Friday to come. This has been a hard and tiring week. We spent most of the weekend shopping for mu husbands office stuff. We are moving him into our bed room so we can have room for the baby to have the nursery. What a job there is still a lot to do it is hard to find places to put every thing are room is not that big. But when its all done it will be nice to have a nursery for the baby.
We are having our pastor and his wife and their kids over for dinner tomorrow night. I am making homemade lasagna garlic bread and salad. They are our good friends so we will have a good time. I am always intimated to make dinner for any one especially my pastor because he is such a good cook. He did some inspections for my husband and the bill said one homemade dinner from Char so please be praying fro me thanks. Well the big ultrasound is going to be on April 4 which happens to be my 10 year old birthday. The big question is will we find out if it;s a boy or girl. I really don't want to but steve does. I guess we will see what happens on that day. I am a little nervous because it's the 3d one to find out if all looks good with the baby. hopefully we she little girl parts if we do peek
Char

Trials are hard.. But Thank you for them.

I can not believe that I am 5 months praise God. I have to say this has been a very hard time in my life trusting him completely. I have been attending a women's bible study by Beth Moore. The study is so great if you ever have a chance to take it you should. She has us do this 5 point pledge is Say's this. 1. God can do what he says He can do. 2. God is who says He is. 3. I am who God Say's I am. 4. I can do all things through Christ. 5. Gods word is alive and active in me. That is a constant reminder that He can do what He says he can do.
This has been so hard for me because I had to have a d/c last October and I did not want to go through that again that is my second one I have had enough. For me it was like I stood in line for a baby and I came home with nothing a emptiness inside me that hurt so bad that I hated every one around me especially the teen girls who did not want a baby. And all of the women at the mall who were pregnant. I wasn't mad at God but I was hurt and confused. I went through the why Me's a lot. I had horrible fights with my husband I told my pastor to get out of my house that I had nothing to say to him. Thank God for a loving and merciful Savior He brought me to a place where I had to trust Him. Nothing else satisfied the emptiness except Him. I look back on that time in my life where all I did was cry and was so horribly saddened I am so thankful that I had that trail it gave me a more intimate relation ship with my Jesus. My Jesus the one who suffered for me He took the pain for me He loves me so much that he gave His life for me.
Trials are hard I will even go as far as saying that sometimes they just plain suck. They are such a growing experience for us they bring us closer to our loving Savior. He has the perfect plan for us. He can see what our future has for us even though we sometimes think we know what is best for us. He Loves you so much and He wants the best that we can't even imagine what that is. Thank you Jesus for all you have done and will do.
Char